Friday, February 06, 2009
2:33 AM

i really wish to be emotionally strong, but at some points of time, i suck at it.
anyway, work has been a blast, so much so, that i do not want April to come and start school shit. all the damn stress and stuff.
Work is like my new school just minus the stress, with extra fun. every single day.


i dont know, its all coming back to me now. even though ive been here before, ive made all the same mistakes. and i am very vulnerable right now.
where has real happiness gone to?

i especially miss Joshua. He has always been my pillar of support for a lot of things. and now, to not see him so often, its just weird. i used to share with him all the shit i went thru and vice versa, it was the best time. and the whole dammn year sitting tgt doing all sorts of shit. and i remembered, i had a few problem at home just before my O lvl POA paper. and slept at 4 am when the paper started at 8am. He was the one that gave me the strength, the confidence, motivation. And God, too help me thru it. and in the end i got a marvelous A2. that was, the best thing ever man. Hope you're doing fine dude, i hope my appeal gets thru and will see u in NP for another 3 years. (= i pray.

StairwayMannequin